~Poems~

12.15.11

I would walk to the edge of the ocean just to fill your jar with sand. Just in case you got hte notion to let it run through your hands. Just in case you got the notion to let it run through my hands. ... No, I don't want the whole world, not the sun, not the moon, not even all the light they come with. I just want to be the only girl you love all the rest of your life...

It's all because of you

Some times I wonder if you ever knew,
how my heart overflows with adoration for you.
If only you could see
the way you fill my hopes and dreams.
You're the owner of my heart,my body, my soul
the ruler supreme.
Even in the dark of night,
I've only to think about you
to feel your loving light
and from this world I drift
feeling as if
I'll never touch the ground again...
I wonder if you ever knew

It's all because of you.

If only you could guess
how I hear your voice when others speak;
for you hold the key to my happiness,
and it's all my soul seeks.
If only you could feel,
how your very presence
has the power to heal,
all the wounds inside me.
I wonder if you ever knew

It's all because of you.

The Fire of a slaves belly

All woman wish the strength of a man, all woman wish, in some form, to be dominated. Many woman are too proud or independent to believe such is true, however, within the depths of their souls, a fire burns. 

"Women, in their heart, long to submit; this is necessary for the slave girl; she must submit or die; submitted, she is thrilled to the core; she lives then for love and service, bound to the will of her master. The joy of the slave girl may seem incomprehensible to the free but it is a reality" Page 55 - Beasts of Gor

As the fire in her belly burns her skin shudders thoughts of Him dance in her mind, tinker lifted herself from the tile flooring, gracefully rolling from her side up onto her knees, as she rolls her back long golden blond hair cascades around her supple curves, slowly, inch by inch, lifted herself to a kneeling position, as fluid a swan glides across the pond. Body erect, the her head slowly rises, with a swirl of her blond, loose hair. Then, looking to scan the room for Him as her lungs fill with His scent a smile erodes upon her ruby red lips, suddenly she bent forward impulsively , as a feather floating to the ground, hands on the tiles, head down, soft supple lips kissed the cool tiles at His feet. she rolls her heavenly blue eyes up at him. As if silently begging Him yearn His touch knowing only He could tame the fire that torchers her soul.

"Sexuality is a glory in a slave girl which sets her apart from free women...The sexuality of the aroused slave girl is incomprehensible to the free woman. It is nothing she will ever understand. It is a color she can not see, a sound she can not hear..." Page 333 - Tribesmen of Gor

A Masters Role

 

"Strong men simply need women. This will never be understood by weak men. A strong man needs a woman at his feet, who is truly his. Anything else is less than his fulfillment. When a man has once eaten the meat of the gods he will never again chew on the straw of fools." Explorers of Gor, page 12

 A Master slave relationship is practiced based upon Safe, sane and consensual principals. However, there are no days i do this and days i don't.

A slave must trust her Master. Trust that he will care for her life and wellbeing. A  Master takes the responsibility for his slave in what she does, how she acts, what she wears, what she learns; responsibility for all parts of her as well as her wellbeing and health. A true man does not willingly damage something valuable to him. Like anywhere else, there are pretenders, abusers, and people trying to do something they really are unfit to do. It is said that a man must master himself before he can master a slave. The good Masters do not need to prove themselves to anyone because they have already proved what they are to themselves. My slavery is not simply about sex. It is about service of a slave to her Master and the pleasing of him. Sex is there but it is not the most important thing. A  Master does not discipline a slave for her erotic enjoyment, or his, but to punish her. To make her understand that she was displeasing in her actions or attitudes and that she needs to change what he found displeasing.

Being a slave is an attitude and a way of life, not something you do in the bedroom or when you put on special clothes and go to a play party somewhere. It does not turn on or turn off when convenient.

Understand that this is my sole perception and understanding.

Above all else a Master values his slave and understands the vulnerability of her position. Knowing that she has assumed her correct place he is bound to compel her to behave as what she is, and to correct her as she strives to achieve the utmost fulfillment of her natural needs.
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A Master is demanding and takes full advantage of the power he wields, but accepts the responsibility which comes with his Mastery. He takes pride in the achievements of his slaves, and rewards their devoted service by administering pleasure as he sees fit.
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A Master is first and foremost Master of himself

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A  Master holds the power over his, but is wise and compassionate enough with that power only using it in the best interests of his Mastery and to ensure that she grows in her slavery. A Master will reward his slave generously as he sees fit, also to compel obedience and to promote growth in her slavery..
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A  Master’s role is never dictated merely by time or location. He will remember that the feelings and emotions of his slave are a vital part of his relationship with her, and will not hesitate to comfort or offer solace to his slave, should it seem good to him.
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To be a  Master a man must be strong enough to command his slave’s respect and her trust, so that she may serve him willingly in the knowledge that he will allow nothing less. A  Master will strive at all times to guide and to teach a slave the truths of her position.
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A Master is not afraid to demonstrate his humor, his kindness, and his warmth. The slave understands this and appreciates his softer qualities.
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A Master should, through his deeds and actions, demonstrate to his slave that he is worthy of her service to him. He must be strong enough to maintain her under the strictest discipline even in an informal setting. He must prove himself inflexible when the situation requires it, and be wise enough to allow some leeway when it, too, is necessary.
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A Master will be strong enough to defend what is his, when it becomes necessary. He will protect his slave from the consequences of his own folly, and see to it that she is suitably corrected when she errs. He is a pillar of strength which she may lean on in times of duress, and his slave may take heart in knowing that he is there to Master her and maintain her in her slavery.
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A Master will always pay the strictest attention to the feelings and emotional needs of his slave, fulfilling them when he deems it appropriate.
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A Master seeks to learn more of himself from his slave, and is wise enough to know that he is not always correct. He expects his slave to allow him to discover these things for himself.
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A Master understands that each partner gains most from fulfilling the other’s needs, be they the need to serve or the need to command. It is a natural balance.

An owned slaved

"The slave girl is commonly desired and prized by her Master; she is one of his treasures. The Master, interested in her and attentive to her, wants to know everything about her, in its complexity and intimacy. He wants to know her thoughts, her emotions and feelings, in all their feminine, lyrical detail."

This is what my understanding of what it is to be an owned slave.

When i think about what it truly is to be an owned slave on a personal level i think of peace, harmony and balance. To surrender myself to my Master in totality. "Surrender; the act of yielding, or resigning ones person, or the possession of something, into the power of another, as, the surrender of a castle to an enemy; the surrender of a right" God has given me free choice whether to accept Masters decision or not. I choose whether to accept his authority over me or not. An owned slave willingly and freely gives up all choice and decisions by accepting their Master. Masters’ word is final and absolute. A slave will only get away with what Master allows as stated by Master Himself. A slave is to serve at the Masters convenience not vise versa. 

• Slaves belong, entirely, to their owner. Mind, Body, Soul, & Heart!

There is a deep calling within my soul to submit. Not to just anyone but to Master. It is not a mere "play session" on a Saturday night or an online venture that is role-played out. It runs through my veins and is entwined in my soul. The need for my King is a deeply rooted need to belong to him and him only in my entirety 24 hours a day 7 days a week.

A Master is not merely interested in the flesh. That comes easily enough. My surrender is of all my thoughts, my spirit and my heart which is centered around him and seeks him.

Owned by my Master i feel a sense of a complete unity as i can only be truly balanced with him. i believe i was created to serve My Master. The reason i was put on this earth was to be owned by him. i simply exist to serve my Master.

• Complete Trust.

A Master should never think of owning a slave unless he was capable and well prepared to assume responsibilities for that slave. Any slave through their submission gives complete trust to their owner. For me however, it travels a bit deeper past the traditional trust with conditions ( if you do this i will do that) For me, i must trust Master to know what is best for me. When i need encouragement, when i need pushing and when i need discipline. i surrender this trust to him unconditionally. ( i never said it is easy)

• An investment

 A slave is the property and investment of the Master and a good Master should not and must not lose money on his investment.

• The offering

A slave should and must continue to make small offerings, sacrifices like scents, incense, gadgets, cologne to the Master in order to continue receiving favor, kindness and mercy from the Master.

• i am who i am.

And i love it! With that being said the good, the bad and the ugly...I hide none of it from my Master, whether that be thoughts, feelings, desires, needs. There is no falsehood no barriers, my Master is there to protect me not harm me. I express my feelings and thoughts and withhold nothing from my Master. I learned a long time ago just to stop fighting against my nature and accept who i am for all the imperfects and perfections within me. Above all i as a slave must continue to improve myself physically,mentally and spiritually for the soul purpose of serving  my Master's Master "The Creator"God.

..the love of a slave girl is the deepest and most profound love that any woman can give a man. Love makes a woman a man's slave, and the wholeness of that love requires that she be, in truth, his slave. With nothing less can she be fully, and institutionally, content. (Magicians of Gor, page 31)